How thick is the shell of your being? I'll bet the older you are, the thicker....even if you don't want it to be that way. It's almost like spiritual scar tissue...wounds..wounds...wounds. I even could say it feels like people can see it. Some can sense it. Most find it ugly, some can relate.
Do you find that once every few years... a look, or a movie or a song presses through the shell like soft butter? Unnerving.